Today G'ma had her home assessment visit. Everything went very well and we hope for her to be home on Wednesday. We truly have a lot ahead of us. Her memory is not what it used to be and she is very stubborned. Things are going to be very different for her and for her caregivers.
Understand that I am no writter, first and formost...
It is very different on my part. Where I am teaching Noah the words "yes" and "no" and what they mean, G'ma already knows them and decides whether or not she wants to abide by them. Some days she remembers who I am and some days I am not so fortunate. I don't know what is harder; knowing there is nothing I can do to fix this or watching her go through this knowing she can't fix it for herself. This is truly something no one can prepare you for or tell you how to address it. All I know is that when she tells me that she loves me and appreciates me, my heart melts because I know that she can remember her emotions at this point. She and my grandpa were always there for my family. I could never imagine being somewhere else when I feel that she and my family need me. I can say that I have learned a lot through all of this and I just hope to instill in Noah the values of family and what they have always meant to me.
Grandpa had one sister who was 10 years older than him. They were never close in age or at the heart. I think that always bothered him, because as Ryan and I grew up he always said Ryan would one day be all that I had of our family. There are times that I wonder if Noah will be an only child or not because Jason and I have not made that decision yet. Grandma on the other hand had 3 brothers and 2 sisters who to this day are still close.
I can't think of what life would be like if I had not had my "Grand" parents. They gave me my mother, who then gave Ryan and I life, so that I could marry the love of my life. Jason has now given me more than I could have ever thought possible. His name is Noah, and I only hope that one day when he has his own family he will remember how he came to be. I don't think that children realize what their parents sacrifice for them until they are a parent themselves.
I ask you who read this to keep our family in your thoughts and prayers. Grandma is at this point is on a day to day basis with her memory and health.
2 comments:
Hey Anna,
I will keep your grandmother in my prayers. I'm glad to hear that she is coming home. It is so hard to watch someone be affected by Alzheimers. My grandfather is in a nursing home now experiencing the same thing. He's always been such a "prestigious" man, and now he's depending on others for his care. Memory is such a powerful thing and we don't realize how fortunate we are to have such happy memories. Even though your grandmother may not always "remember" things, know that she knows the love and care that you guys give her. Let me know if I can help in any way!
Dear Anna,
I know it is extremely hard for all of you now and it absolutely breaks my heart to Lucille sick. I love your Family as if it were my own and I can't imagine if it were partly my responsibility to care for her. You do have a job ahead of you like no other and I can guarantee that you won't let anyone down! Not your Mom or Lucille. Along the way you'll probably surprise yourself and wonder how you have managed to take care of her. The Lord can do marvelous things and his work is in progress with your Family. I'll continue praying for you all! Love, Your Jenn too
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